What was it like?
It was very dysfunctional. No one knew what to expect when I was intoxicated. I didn’t even know who I would become especially if I was blacked out. One day I would be a happy drunk “having fun”, the next, I would be a big crybaby and often times I was an aggressive drunk. I could be going through something or nothing at all and create chaos, so I have a reason to drink until eventually that reason was simply because I felt I NEEDED to drink and I WANTED to drink – because it was easier to feed my addiction than to recover from it.
What happened?
My mom died. Grief was the best excuse to use to feed my addiction, but I also didn’t know how to handle my emotions. I had been on a winter long binge starting from October 2021 to about June 2022. I was extremely sick of it – I lost my job; I lost the privilege to see my daughter (I actually chose to drink than to show up for her on Christmas day of 2021). I was alone until I reached out to a dear friend who is the director of a faith based transitional living home. I asked her for help. She helped me!
What is life like now?
I get to live in freedom and peace – Jesus delivered me from the bondage of alcohol – I have been set free only by HIS grace and mercy! Life can get hectic here on earth, there’s always going to be trials and tribulations but man, I get to turn to my COMFORTER and REDEEMER Jesus rather than drowning myself with alcohol!
I will be 2 years sober this December – the longest EVER in my 36 years of living; having been drinking since I was 14 years old.
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“For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.” Galatians 5:1
