Ariadne Schablein, who goes by Ari, is living out of a suitcase in the first weeks after moving back into her mother’s home. Ari returned at the end of June. Carol had kicked her out of the house nine months earlier for refusing to follow family rules. When Ari first returned, she didn’t know she was pregnant, but she began to suspect it soon after. The pregnancy is one of the reasons Carol allowed her to stay.
Ari considers her pregnancy
You’ve been clean for three months now. Is it going to stick?
Ari: I’m content that it will, because I’m more receptive to learning the stuff in treatment. I’m voluntarily doing it, but I’m doing it because my mom wanted me to do it and because I’m pregnant. Before I didn’t get much out of treatment centers. Like, I did, but I didn’t.
What do you think about having the baby? Are you excited? Scared?
Ari: I’m nervous.
There was a period where you weren’t clean but were pregnant. Are you worried about that?
Ari: A little bit. I’ve talked to all my providers and doctors in treatment and they said everything I was using should be out of the system.
What do you ask them?
Ari: I ask about the heartbeat. Does it sound regular? Anything irregular at all? I know the side effects and everything, but for physical appearances, I don’t think there’s going to be any problem there. Just because when I was using (drugs) it wasn’t arms and legs. It was still a little pod. But I know that’s the brain cells and everything. There could be some questions. I talked to all my doctors about the medication I’m on now … basically vitamins, because I quit taking my anti-depressant. They just put me back on my anxiety pill. They said it’s safer because I’m almost in my third trimester, but it shouldn’t have much damage on brain or anything like that.
Why were you on medication?
Ari: I was prescribed them for my depression and anxiety and my PTSD. You have PTSD? What from? Ari: Past relationships and using substances. Just abusive relationships. Not all physical. Some were verbal and mental. I always pick the winners.
Originally published May 3, 2014 by Kyle Hopkins in Anchorage Daily News.